My first and only true love is from 1st grade. Her name is Elsa. In first grade I did not know what it was. I saw her at school and as soon as I saw her I didnt want anything else other than to be near her. Luckily, my teacher always had her and I sit next to each other or at least a desk away. When I was near her I acted like an idiot. I would be mean to her and then try to be nice to her. One time I pulled out Elsa’s chair before she sat down and she hit her head. She told on me. I got in trouble next thing I know were sitting at the lunch tables. The bell rings and all the other kids go to play. But there I sat with Elsa. I dont know why I was sitting there, I think I was waiting for Elsa to go first. But I think she was waiting for me to get up and go too. We ended up just sitting there through the whole lunch. We said nothing for a while. Then she looked at me and smiled, I smiled back. I felt warm, because Elsa’s smiles are adorable like that. Then I looked away and she slowly moved closer to me and she whispered something in my ear. “I love you.” When she had said that I had no doubt in my mind that that was what the feeling was. No, I didnt fully understand it, but I felt it. I just felt the love. And for that moment she whispered those words to me and smiled, time just seemed to stop. And it moved forward again when I moved in closer to her and whispered the same words. I dont know where the time went, because after that year she was practically gone from me. I learned that she switched schools and stuff. It was not until my freshman year in HS that we were able to get back into each other. And again I felt Elsa’s love. I had her and she had me. But I was an idiot. I made the biggest mistake in my life. After a while, I started to ignore her. That’s another story, but after a couple of months, we started talking again. And I thought things could go back to just me and her. But she fell in love with this other guy during the time that I was out of the picture. Zaq. At first I resented Zaq and practically hated the guy. I did everything I could to try and win Elsa back. But she IS really in love with this guy. I was really messed up because, I was kind of like a home wrecker. But I couldn’t help it. I tried to to hold on to what could have been. It wasnt until I saw Elsa and Zaq kiss right front of me, did I snap. I figured that I needed to grow up. Elsa is remarkable and unbelievable in so many different aspects. There is no man that would not want to be with Elsa. Elsa deserves the best, the absolute best. She deserves to be with a man who is willing to create a whole new world with her. I want the best for Elsa but over it all, I just want her to be happy. Zaq makes her happy and so I can live with it. I DO wish that it were me making her happy, but I missed my chance and so I will wait. I am always going to be here for Elsa. I still love her. I really do love her. I know she is my only genuine love because I can look back at her and all the things we have been through, all the happiness and sadness (and believe me I did not know what true sorrow was until she broke my heart), and I can still say I dont regret her. I can look back and say I love her. I can look at her now and I will tell her I love her. I mean it always. Every “love” after her wasn’t real, looking back I cant say that I still love them. And they come nowhere close to her Elsa is in my heart. Elsa is right here in my home, where my heart is. And I need to thank Elsa because were it not for her, my heart wouldn’t be up in the sky. Elsa is my First Love. Elsa. Elsa. Elsaaaaa ~ <3 I love you.